Sun Gazing Tapas Journal – Month 3 by Adina

New Dimensions of the Practice. Notes and Observations:

1. Liking the practice:

• This daily repeated exercise increased my “liking” of the practice to the point that I wish it could last longer.
• I feel that the number of minutes I reached are not enough for me anymore. I “crave” the practice every morning and I look forward to see the sun rising the next day.

2. Eyes activation in the daily life:

• My Eyes activation lasts for a long time during the entire day following the practice.
• Sometimes, during normal daily activities, I feel my eyes just suddenly becoming energised and vibrating, the energy field in the entire area around my eyes becomes expanded and my gaze becomes somehow shifted from the physical world.
• It becomes temporary difficult to read anything in those moments, and the physical objects look blurred. I have to keep a de-focalised gaze and let my vision field expand.
• Ajna Chakra is spontaneously activated and vibrating in the same time.

3. Hrid Mudra:

• I had a spontaneous urge to bring my hands in Hrid Mudra. It felt like inner guidance or some message from the divine consciousness about something I have “next to do”.
• The practice in this new way felt very good and powerful.
• The pranic circuit from my hands to the heart area becomes immediately obvious, perceivable and very comforting. I will continue this way for the next weeks.
• It certainly helps releasing an affective trauma in emotional crisis. Generalised feeling of well-being. Strong activation of Anahata Chakra.
• The feeling of well-being becomes so strong that it makes me wish to come back to the practice the next day. I long for it during the day.

4. Anjali Mudra:

• Moving on to Anjali Mudra makes a fine transition from the feeling of well-being and inner emotional comfort to a more meditative state.
• Keeping centeredness is easy, I completely withdraw from the external world.
• I find my way “inward” and I continue my gazing practice witnessing the perceptions, both visionary and emotional, from my heart center.
• I continue the practice alternating Hrid Mudra and Anjali Mudra.

5. Prarthanasana (Prayer Pose):

• In the last few days of the 3^rd month of my Tapas I experiment with the practice standing in Prarthanasana.
• It is a familiar and confortable pose for me, so I can keep it for a long time while continuing my sun gazing practice with calmness and aspiration, without tension and in complete surrender.
• I find profound relaxation in that pose, the breath pattern settles in naturally. I try to keep some rhythmic breathing flowing naturally.
• I keep the awareness of the Heart Center and I continue blowing upon the amber of the heart during the practice.
• I settle in the Natural State with reverence and devotion.
• I have the feeling that I am seeking for something precious that is above and beyond ourselves as limited individuals and it will be revealed to me when I am mostly prepared to see.
• I am certainly seeking for answers and guidance in my path to follow.

I am seeking for directions and a new way in my spiritual quest for bringing the Absolute Truth to the world and liberation to all beings.

• I am open to welcome anything that may be revealed to me – any inspiration, insights, visions and revelations from the divine consciousness about the physical world and all subtle dimensions.
• I am maintaining a state of fearlessness to anything I may perceive, non-judgement, non-discrimination, non-prejudice, while gazing and praying in open attention, humbleness and witness attitude.

I find the “gift of grace”.  State of amazing grace in stillness and naturalness.

5. Post-practice:

• I continue with Phosphene work and inner Trataka, followed by Ajna-focused meditation after the sun gazing practice.

Note: I aim to increase the length of the practice in both the Sun Gazing and Prarthanasana combined in the several months to follow.